Boyfriend?

For once in my life I'm going to say that I think I want to stay single for awhile.
(appx. one year actually)

You see, as pethetic as this might sound, I'm still not completely over my last relationship. Not only that, but I have so much going on right now that I don't think it would be fair to date anyone at this point because I wouldn't "be there" like I know a girlfriend should be. I just can't. Also because I have so much going on, this is a time where I really need to focus on me. I really don't want anything to make me loose sight of what im doing.

Plus, why waste my time when as soon as I graduate (which will now only be a year from now) I will be moving to North Carolina?
I'm affriad of being left again.
I can't take it.
Everything good always leaves me in the end.

Poop

Today I decided I will be going through with switching to day school starting Monday. I still dont have any idea what im going to do as far as the whole "job" thing goes.
I guess as far as that goes I might just have to figure that out as I go.

My best (fucking) friend forever (bfffe), cassie, just found out her date that she ships off to boot camp. I'm SO proud of her for joining the Marines its rediculous, but at the same time i can't help but to get a little selfish and say that I don't want her to go. Even more so since her date is December 7th, and it's right before Christmas. Just thinking about it makes me weld up with tears. She's the best friend I've ever had, and right now she's pretty much the only friend I really have. It's just that I don't know what I will do once I can't call her and tell her about how bad my day has been, or how totally hott this one guy who's actually talking to me is, or even how much I miss her.

We're just getting really close, even closer than before, and now shes going to have to leave.
This is the story of my life.
Why is it that everytime I get super close to someone they're either ripped from me, or decide to leave me?
Shits's getting old.

My Problem...

My biggest problem lately has to do with school and work. Not that I hate school or anything, but my current situation is that my availibility for my jobs at that for Panera I can work Monday through Thursday 6a.m. to 3p.m. and then Monday through Thursday I have school 5p.m. to 9p.m.. Then my availibility for Hot Topic is any time of day Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

Now, you see, since I'm in night school it will take me 2 years to complete, but I have an opportunity to switch to day school which is 7:30a.m. to 2:30p.m. Monday through Friday. If i decide to go to day school, I will complete my Cosmetology Licence in 18 months.

But the problem I am having is that if I switch, I will only be able to work at Hot Topic Saturday and Sunday, and Panera Monday through Friday at night. Also, Panera only schedules me maybe two days a week... and thats if im lucky.
So, to be honest, I'm contemplating weather or not just to cut Panera out of the picture completely and have all that availibility for Hot Topic, but I will have to speakwith my general manager and see if I do decide to have all that availibility that then they will be able to garuntee me at least twenty hours a week to be able to pay my bills.

Im really lost as to what to do...
any oppinions??

So, this is my first "blog"... i feel so "hip".

So, to be honest there are so many thoughts running through my head as to what to actually write about, but now that i actually have a blog, I don't know which one to write about first.

First thing you need to know about my blog is that to avoid drama, I will be using codenames for people.
HER: a girl around here yonder parts that a lot of people dislike, and that is all you need to know.

There is so much drama all the time here. By "here", I don't actually mean here, as in this exact spot here in my room, but here, as in central Florida. It seems like everytime I turn around someone else is mad at me for something different. Something stupid. Something pointless. I think everyone is always just searching for a reason to be mad, an excuse. I mean, I'm a pretty easy target to be mad at, I can admit, and even come to accept that, But lately I feel like I have become the new HER.
Nothing seems to go right.